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I want my Mummy!!!

I am a complete mess right now..
I feel like an emotional wreck and my head is a complete chaos.

I know it is the anti-depressives that is starting to work, because it is getting worse before it is getting better, but it is hard to handle…and it is hard to talk about.

It is like I have all these little black boxes inside my head, that I have put all the bad stuff into the past 15 months, because I couldn’t deal with it, hence the depression.
Now the boxes is starting to open and everything is coming out…..a lot of it is feelings and emotions, things I can`t explain right now.

A lot of it is relation to my sister, and it gets me so angry and frustrated and ruins my days…and nights.
I’ve talked to my mum about it the past few days, not for her to tell me what to do, but for me to word it. We’re continuing it to see if it works, if for nothing else to make me cry;)

But it is not that I don`t do anything or sit around moping all day, it is just how I feel right now;)


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Nov. 7th, 2008 08:07 pm (UTC)
*hugs you tight* Awww I'm so sorry you're feeling like this, try to stay positive, it will get better.

If you want to pour this all out please email me and I'll get right back to you. I'm doing ok, I have things in a routine now so I will be there for you, properly. So please talk to me if you need to, anytime.

*big hugs*♥
Nov. 7th, 2008 08:52 pm (UTC)
Thanks honey,
I know it´ll get better, and so will I..

I have a lot of things I need to get out, so I´ll take you up on your offer and mail you this weekend, thank you♥
....and you`re always here for me, no matter what!
I´m glad you`re getting better.

♥big hugs and kisses♥

Nov. 7th, 2008 08:57 pm (UTC)
I hope you do hun, I'll look out for it:)

*big hugs*♥
Nov. 7th, 2008 08:22 pm (UTC)
Just take a deep breath and be thankful for the little stuff that is going right in your life. :]
Nov. 7th, 2008 08:49 pm (UTC)
Yeah........the cancer is gone, I´m happy about that;)
Nov. 7th, 2008 09:51 pm (UTC)
*hugs* I hope the anti-depressants work soon.
Nov. 8th, 2008 02:24 pm (UTC)
Thanks hon, me too.
Nov. 7th, 2008 11:22 pm (UTC)
Sweetie, you have been through HELL this past year. It is no surprise that it is all finally catching up with you. Be sure to take your medication as directed and it will help. Let yourself cry and get it all out. Allow yourself to be angry. Yell and scream if it feels good. And be sure to talk with someone about it too. All these things will help you sort through it. Whatever you do, try and remember there are lots of people that are there for you and care about you.

Most importantly...take care of yourself! *Hugs tight*
Nov. 8th, 2008 02:26 pm (UTC)
Thanks Andrea,
I´ll continue the medication, cause it will make it better eventually.
Thanks for your kind advice and for always being here for me.
♥big hugs
Nov. 8th, 2008 12:15 am (UTC)
I wasn't around lately but you do know taht I think of you!
I hope you'll feel better sooen enough my Kastanje Honey
Nov. 8th, 2008 02:28 pm (UTC)
Hey sweetie,
I know that you`re always there for me, and that helps more than I can say♥
♥love you too♥
Nov. 8th, 2008 02:05 am (UTC)
*hugs* Think about the good things and all of the great people in your life that do support you. You have all of us here on LJ too, we all care about you!

Hang in there hon, things will get better.
Nov. 8th, 2008 02:29 pm (UTC)
Thank hon,
You know I couldn`t have done this without you, I would have gone insane a long time ago.
Nov. 8th, 2008 05:28 am (UTC)
Oh, sorry to hear that, hon!
But hopefully, things will get a lot better after it all comes out.
Nov. 8th, 2008 02:30 pm (UTC)
Thanks so much, hony,
It´ll get better I know, just have to be patient..
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