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What a year I have had!!!

I have been keeping busy the past few days, trying to ignore yesterday.

Yesterday the 13 of august it was one year ago I had my breast cancer surgery….
I have been feeling a bit weird about it and tried to hide it from my parents…but they are not easily fooled;)

They had discovered a new recycling shop that the cancer foundation had started here in Aalborg, so when I talked to them on the phone they told me that they was cleaning out things to give to them. I have been meaning to get rid of a lot of clothes for a long time myself, so I packed two big sacks with cloths and then my parents picked me up, telling me that we were going to that shop, and afterwards celebrating my one year with dinner at their place. Pork loin with crackling which is a favorite of mine;)

My mum bought a new chair and I bought some cream jugs for my collection.

Then we went shopping for dinner and got home.
But as we unloaded the car something “bad” happened!! My sister went by with her kids….They have been to see my grandmother..
My nieces were overjoyed to see their grandparents again and my parents was happy to spend five minutes with the kids.
My sister asked about my treatment and my chances….I told her briefly, cause I don`t want to talk to her…she don`t care about me at all, she is a hypocrite, and she is not happy until I die from this.
Seeing the kids sort of broke my parents, cause they haven’t seen them the past year…..and they know that my sister have told the girls that their grandparents don’t like them, because they like me….
But we got through the rest of the day, and had a nice dinner…..

I have been cleaning out a lot of stuff today, cause I have to keep busy…I feel kind of frustrated these days…I still feel sick and tired, having no energy, and then knowing that there is no more treatment for me.
Now I have to relay on my body to fight it and keep me alive the next five years, and I have a 50% chance of actually being here in five years……it is frustrating right now!!

Sorry about the ranting but I can`t talk to my parents about this…they are so happy that my hair is growing, forcing me to loos the wig at their place, and running their hands over it all the time;) They can`t think about me getting sick again….
I don`t want to think about it myself but sometimes you know……….


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Aug. 14th, 2008 03:11 pm (UTC)
*big hugs* You have certainly had a tough year hon! but... things are going to get better for you. I know it's really difficult to stay positive but you are an inspiration to everyone! After everything you have gone through you still always have time for your family and your friends!

I received your package in the post today, thank you so so much I love them and you! ♥
Aug. 14th, 2008 03:25 pm (UTC)
Yeah sometimes I just need to get it out you know. It get so hard sometimes...
Thank you so much for your kind words.

And I´m happy you like the present.
♥I love you too♥
..and so does my parents by the way;) They love you for always cheering me up♥
Aug. 14th, 2008 07:34 pm (UTC)
my sister have told the girls that their grandparents don’t like them, because they like me….
She what????? *is furious* How dare she? Isn't it ba enough that she doesn't care at all?

I'm glad you had a nice day and don't worry to much about the future. You want to live an dyou will live. I won't let you go and after you got through this last year that was so hard for you you can do it. I just know it.

Aug. 14th, 2008 07:39 pm (UTC)
My sister is a mean cold person that only cares about herself, and never concider who she hurt in getting her way!!

Thanks for your sweet kind words. I won`t ever leave you;)
I WILL live you know.....sometimes the odds just seems a bit harsh to beat.....but I AM strong and I WILL beat them....esecially with the help of my dear friends...

♥hugs back♥
Aug. 15th, 2008 12:02 pm (UTC)
But how could she say something like that to her own children? Bu tthen again, I should know better than that...

I know and i totally understand which was why I said it. You need to think positive and enjoy your life but not forget it and I know how things are sometimes.

Aug. 17th, 2008 03:08 pm (UTC)
Thanks hon♥
Yeah you off all people will know how bad family can react:(
Aug. 15th, 2008 01:12 am (UTC)
Do I need to fly over there and smack some sence into your sister? *cracks knuckles*
Aug. 15th, 2008 07:35 am (UTC)
Yeah thanks that would be nice;)

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Aug. 15th, 2008 10:51 am (UTC)
That is a deal!!

I´m pleased to hear that your dad is well. You know how it is going through major crises, and I am forever grateful of you being sch a great friend to me.
♥love you♥
Aug. 17th, 2008 01:57 pm (UTC)
My so dear Kastanje Honey. You are a so wonderful person, so loving and caring. And I can only wished I am just a little more like you. You are so courageous! It is so normal to be a little depressed now that what you just can do is waiting... But I'm so sure everything will be alright and that you'll be better. It has to be like that. *nodnod*

I'm happy you can have good times with your family especially where you aren't feeling so well.
Your sister is just so scaring you know -_- Better not think about her. When her children grow up they'll understand that all what she said was wrong. But it is a shame your parents just can enjoy their little children because of that -_-

You have to keep faith!
Aug. 17th, 2008 03:11 pm (UTC)
Thank you so much sweetie,
You almost make me cry with all your kind and loving words♥

I am so lucky to have some family that loves me and great friends like you, who cares about me and cheers me up on a daily bases.

I feel most sorry for my parents because they really miss their grandkids.

and I will!!!
♥hugs and kisses♥
Aug. 17th, 2008 08:47 pm (UTC)
No crying, no crying!
I'm just telling you teh thruth!
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