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Sorry to bother you

So I have been a bit - a lot - of a mess the past week *sigh*
I started a new kind of chemo last Tuesday something called “Taxotere” ( I have been told it is the kind of poison they used to kill elephants with in India!!, and I am small compared to an elephant and they still push a litre or so into my blood!!)
I was told that the secondary effects would be worse------and they were!!
From day one every inch of me was in pain….my bones, my skin, everything. My mouth hurt so I could not eat, I could not lay down to sleep and I could not sit in my chair……I ate a lot of painkillers but it did not help. On Saturday I was considering taking a knife and cutting my hands to move the pain to something I could actually see!! I did not though!!
Sunday I could not take it anymore, so I called the hospital and they told me to come out at once!! So I went and the doctor looked me over, made sure that I did not have a fever and gave me some new painkillers - morphine-like - and I was in heaven!! The pain went away within an hour and I could eat and drink coffee again.
I still need the pills and I’ll be sure to have some with me for the next chemo.
But today I felt so good that I went shopping in town with my mum. I haven’t left the house for a week and it was a beautiful day.
So we spend four hours in town, shopping, having lunch and coffee and having a good time. Then I felt bad and had to go home to get some more medicine and rest, but we had a great day.

And I just want to thank angieobsessed, kes1807 and le_mouton for taking care of me and cheering me up the past week.
I love you girls so much!!



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Apr. 2nd, 2008 07:11 am (UTC)
Thanks hon, I´ll reast and take the pills and I´ll be fine.
I love you too♥
And I know she does;)I love her too...
Apr. 1st, 2008 08:11 pm (UTC)
I'm sorry to hear this. I hope things get better as soon as possible. *hugs*
Apr. 2nd, 2008 07:11 am (UTC)
Thanks for the hug;)
Apr. 1st, 2008 08:48 pm (UTC)
And I love you hon! Anytime I'll be here for you, you know that right?

I'm pleased your pain meds are working now and you're feeling a little better.

It's good that you got to go shopping and have lunch with your Mum, but make sure you get some rest as well.

*hugs you tight*
Apr. 2nd, 2008 07:12 am (UTC)
I know you will, I love you.

I promise to rest and take it easy.
♥hugs back♥
Apr. 1st, 2008 11:17 pm (UTC)
*hugs* I'm so sorry you had to go through that. I'm glad they were able to give you something stronger for the pain though. Take care of yourself!
Apr. 2nd, 2008 07:13 am (UTC)
Thanks sweets, I will.
*hugs back*
Apr. 2nd, 2008 02:35 am (UTC)
hang in there hon, i hope things get better soon!
Apr. 2nd, 2008 07:14 am (UTC)
Thanks hon, the pills are doing the trick;)
Apr. 2nd, 2008 04:26 am (UTC)
Oh, honey, I'm so sorry to hear that!
Glad you finally got the right pain meds, and I hope you get better (and for good!) soon!
*portable hug to take with you when you need it*
Apr. 2nd, 2008 07:14 am (UTC)
Thanks honey
I`ll be sure to bring the hug with me;)
Apr. 2nd, 2008 10:38 am (UTC)
On Saturday I was considering taking a knife and cutting my hands to move the pain to something I could actually see!! I did not though!!

Do you want to give me a heartattack?? God, I'm so glad you are okay. There you had me scared a lot. Why didn't you go sooner?

And no need to thank me, I'm doing it because I'm actually selfish.

&hearts hugs &hearts

Love you too, sweetie. Take care of yourself, please.
Apr. 2nd, 2008 11:04 am (UTC)
Sorry I didn`t mean to scare you. I would never do a thing like that it was just that the pain was driving me crazy!!

It didn`t occur to me to call the hospital, cause they had told me that the meds that I had would be enough, that just shows how much they know!!

If being selfish helps me you can be as selfish as you want to;)

♥love you honey♥
Apr. 2nd, 2008 05:23 pm (UTC)
I do understand you better than I'd like to. Honestly I cut my arms or legs sometimes last year to feel other pain and I'm ashamed to admit it but I felt releaved to see the blood. They weren't deep though, just scratches.

Anyway, I'm soo glad you are feeling better and I'd like to kick your doctor's asses. May I? Please?
Apr. 2nd, 2008 06:10 pm (UTC)
Oh honey I am sorry about that, then I understand better why that scared you.

You are welcome to kick my doctor´s asses, go ahead;)

♥hugs tight♥
Apr. 2nd, 2008 06:34 pm (UTC)
just that you had/ have so much more pain and I guess your cuts would have ended up deeper. I don't even have scars from my "scratching"
Apr. 3rd, 2008 04:55 pm (UTC)
Apr. 3rd, 2008 05:04 pm (UTC)
Thanks hon
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