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......but I get depressed sometimes

I went to my blood tests today and they turned out good so I get my chemo tomorrow.
Then I will be grounded the next five days..!!
So if anyone have some great dvds I need to watch please feel free to tell me.

Do you ever sit down and think why you do the things you do?
I do and most times my parents and Sarah are the reason I do what I do--- I love them so much!!
And it sounds horrible cause you girls keep me alive more than anything!!!
Your support means everything to me. But sometimes I just think that if it was just me…..I don`t know..but we all need a reason to stay alive, right??
I know this is horrible, but I get depressed sometimes..

It is not that I want to kill myself but I just feel lonely sometimes..and that is why I love you girls so much..You always cheer me up..
And I am just scared about tomorrow so don`t worry;)


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Mar. 3rd, 2008 05:48 pm (UTC)
*hugs you tight* We all get depressed sometimes, and you certainly have a lot to deal with, but you are doing really well.

I find if I'm feeling really low, just stop and think pick out all the good things in your life, try and focus on things that were amusing, a day out you enjoyed maybe a phone call, look through your photo albums. I find it helps to lighten your mood a little. I know it's really hard to stay positive, but you are doing really well, keep fighting this.

♥♥*hugs* ♥♥

ps. I got your email and will send you one in a day or two.
Mar. 4th, 2008 01:13 pm (UTC)
Thanks hon,
I try to keep up my spirit, but even that wears out sometime;)
So it is good to know you care..
♥hugs back♥
Mar. 3rd, 2008 07:07 pm (UTC)
When you come across it, I think you should pick up season one of "Torchwood". There is a whole lot of pretty going on there. I might have already linked you to this, but here you go anyway:


Hope you recover fast from your chemo!
Mar. 4th, 2008 01:14 pm (UTC)
Thanks sweets,
I´ll take a look;)
Mar. 3rd, 2008 07:43 pm (UTC)
DVDs... let me think...
you could watch Die Hard. the movie is always great. then maybe Indiana Jones, Rambo or would you prefer romances??

tv shows: Supernatral, Dexter, One Tree Hill, Dead Like Me, House, Lost, Robin Hood,

as for your question: I've had my ups and downs and so does everybody else. Don't let some bad memories/events get the better of you. The only reason I'm alive is my grandfather. I won't go into the details but he saved my life and know I'm trying to do it for him.

I'm sorry you feel lonely but just think about your friends. We love you and would do anything for you to feel happy and save.
You are strong and have gotten so far, you'll be alright.

I'll think about you tomorrow and if you want anything from the list above I could send it to you if you can't get it.

*hugs you tight* I love you *hugs*
Mar. 3rd, 2008 07:45 pm (UTC)
if you want to talk to me more you can mail me at verena.k15@gmx.at or I have msn and yahoo.
Mar. 4th, 2008 01:17 pm (UTC)
I love Die Hard, I just got the forth on DVD, and Indiana Jones is so great too..I love action movies..
I love you thank you so much for listening to me. I guess we all get sad when bad things happen, it is great to have friends like you then.
♥hugs back♥

Mar. 4th, 2008 05:29 pm (UTC)
that's what friends are for, right. How are you feeling today? *hugs*
Mar. 4th, 2008 01:25 am (UTC)
DVDs... My favorite is The Princess Bride. Oh you could watch Troy... lots of hot half naked men!

*hugs* We all get down baby, don't worry. I know your situation is not what you would have wished for, but we are all here for you standing right behind you ready to pick you up when you do have moments of weakness and do fall. Don't be afraid to fall, it happens to all of us. Just be proud that you have the strength to pick yourself back up when you do! And you have your family, Sarah and us to help you along the way!

Mar. 4th, 2008 01:18 pm (UTC)
Thankies hon,
I have Troy I better watch it again;)
Thanks for all your kind words, I love you!
Mar. 4th, 2008 05:29 am (UTC)
That's good that you're getting your chemo tomorrow!
WAIT...GROUNDED?!!!! WHY?!!!! I'm missing something aren't I. -.-'

That's great that you found the reason why you do things...I'm still searching. -sigh- I do it for myself I guess...cause I want to be a better person or something...I'm still searching.

<3 I hope that everything goes good tomorrow!!!
Mar. 4th, 2008 01:21 pm (UTC)
I´m not really grounded, it`s just I get pretty sick from the chemo and can`t leave my flat for 5-6 days;)

I do things for myself too. But somtimes I just think that if it had not been for my parents and Sarah I would just roll over and die....
So it is great to have good friends like you;)
Mar. 5th, 2008 04:51 am (UTC)
Oh okay. Well if you're bored...you can watch Japanese Dramas on Crunchyroll!!! XDDDD

=D Glad to be a friend of yours!
Mar. 4th, 2008 08:32 am (UTC)
~huggles~ I'm glad it sounds like you're doing well. As far as DVDs go, I would suggest the Firefly series, Wimbledon, and Eastern Promises. Strange mix, but a lot of fun. Some classics I think are awesome are Bringing Up Baby, Notorious, and Philadelphia Story (they all star Cary Grant!)

I'm sending good thoughts your way!!
Mar. 4th, 2008 01:22 pm (UTC)
Thanks simone,
I´ll try the movies I just love the Cary Grant-ones;)
(And James Stewart in Philadelphia Story is so cute!!)
Mar. 5th, 2008 11:01 am (UTC)

I think you should see some comedies, I like them the best when I'm feeling down... Ohh and I recommend "Casanova" with Heath Ledger. Very good and it has a bit of everything.

Mar. 6th, 2008 08:47 pm (UTC)
Oh I like Heath Ledger, I´ll check it out;)
Mar. 8th, 2008 10:30 pm (UTC)
Well... you know I think that it is the same think that gives us the want to go on. For me it is my mum, my boyfriend and my friends. Friends have always been really important to me! And If I can help you a little then I'm happy.
You really are strong and I admire you for all that you're going through! And I hope everything will be alright and it has to be!
Mar. 9th, 2008 09:27 am (UTC)
Since I met you everything has been so much better, and you have helped me so much through all this, I don`t know how to ever repay you...
*hugs back*
Mar. 9th, 2008 07:31 pm (UTC)
Don't say that XD I'll be the happier girl in the all world when you'll feel better! So that I can have the chance to meet you! ÖÖ
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