I went to the hospital to start my Chemo, but first I had to talk to a doctor.
He just glanced at me and then told me that I could not have Chemotherapy at all, cause it had been four month since I had the operation. So I could not have any treatment at the hospital.
(At that point I started crying so hard that my Mum who was there thank God, had to take over the talking from me.)
What they have told me all along was that I had to heal and start chemo with in SIX month!!!!!!!
What they will do, is keep a close eye on me, and when/if the last cancer cells there still float around in me, turn into another tumour, they will operate me again, hope I heal faster next time and then treat me with chemo.
So basically what I have to do is to wait until I get another breast cancer!!!!!!!!!!!!!
In January I have to talk to yet another doctor about this decision, and I have to talk to a psychologist.
I don`t know what to do, but I will make a complain about the doctor, because NO ONE have told me that I could not have chemo, if it took more that three months from an operation till the treatment.
But right now I just sit here, feeling completely depressed….but I don`t cry anymore.
I just feel so bad, completely blank and empty in my head, and I think that what little Christmas spirit I had, have now left me.
So that is what happened to me today.
- Current Location:Black hole
- Current Mood:
depressed
- Current Music:TV
Comments
*hugs back*
Thank you♥
I'm so sorry to hear that... -_- You know I want to believe that everything will be alright.
But I'm so disappointed that they gave you so wrong informations. ou have the right to know the truth, I mean what it can and can't be done è_é
I'm really angry right now!
I don't want you to feel depressed. I know that you are very strong and that you are fighting with all your strenth and you have to go on even with this news.
I hope you'll enjoy your Christmas with your parents and that the Season spirit will take care of you!
You know I think about you every day and every night before sleeping I just wish you to heal and feel better.
*LOVE YOU KASTANJE HONEY*
I will be strong and I know I will get my Christmas spirit back and have a great Christmas with my parents.
Right now I just feel so sad and empty, and angry about all the wrongness that have happend to me.
I am so greatful that you think of me and I feel so lucky that I know you;)
♥I LOVE YOU,SWEETS♥
I know it is really hard for you right now, but don't give up you have your parents and all of us supporting you, also it's the season for miracles! Try to keep strong, and anytime you want to vent your feelings you know where I am.
*smishes you tight*
I´m so glad you are here.
I know I will fight this, but right now I just feel that all the bad luck in the world is aimed at me...
I will take you up on your offer;)
*kisses and hugs*
I'm sorry!!! -hugs- I wish I could do something to make it better for you!
just knowing you´re there makes it easier.
*hugs*
Translation: Rabble, Rabble, Rabble!
It is exactly how I feel;,,,
When I get my head together I will make the complain, cause I am so angry and hurt right now..
I will enjoy Cristmas, and ♥I LOVE YOU♥
*hugs you tight*
i just... i have no idea what to say.
*holds you*
You know how to make me feel better.
♥hugs you back♥
*pionts at doctor*
You always makes me feel better;)
*hugs back*