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YOU KNOW WHAT???? I AM FAT………

And cross my heart and hope to die, it has never ever been an issue before in my 45 years on this earth. Until today…

I have been fat all my life.
I was born in 1969 being small only 49cm, and looked like ET (thin arms and legs and a round belly, just my head was nicer) years before he was invented.

I went to Kindergarten and then school in 1975 and then for 10 years, being fat and never being bullied about that.
My family never teased me about it, they loved me or liked me and I had great friends and schoolmates.

I went on to work; At a kindergarten,: Getting a degree as a Bookseller; Got a degree in IT, then later working as a cleaner for old people, and finally Getting my degree as a Care Helper.
At that time I was 38 years old and I had never had people calling me out for being fat.

Later at 38 I got aggressive Breast cancer…the doc told me it was to my advantage that I “had meat on me”, as no one could see that they took away a big part of my left breast.
After chemo and radiations, I got on a lot of different medication, that I will need for the rest of my life…some of it will make you put on weight.

By that time I have met most of you guys on LJ…. And later FB...
None of you have ever mentioned my weight or that I looked fat….when I seldom post a picture of me, your comments are always sweet...
So I thought that being me and looking like me was just me and never a problem.

Until today.
Today it was an eye-opener...
My niece Sarah is having her Confirmation on May 11th., we’ve known that for a long time…And I really wanted a pretty new dress…So for my 45th birthday, Mum would buy me some new clothes and we found an online shop with clothes for BIG girls, and I found a lovely dress (along with other stuff for me and some for Mum)
We ordered everything in early April and it was to arrive within two weeks.

But only Mums stuff arrived, mine was delayed until last of April…so today Mum called the store and was told that “dresses that big” was always late and I would not get it before May 11th.
Mum called this afternoon to tell me…she had looked up other places with big clothes and we found a really pretty tunic that was promised to be delivered within 2 days…I asked Mum to cancel the rest of that previous order, as I feel humiliated.
I know I will get a new pretty tunic for Sarah’s Confirmation, but for the first time in my life EVER, I feel FAT.

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elebridith
May. 6th, 2014 10:49 am (UTC)
What the phoenix said - if they offer, they have to deliver, and not be rude about it. :-( Size matters not, as Yoda would say. :-)
*hugs*
pippii
May. 7th, 2014 02:37 pm (UTC)
LOL, yes Yoda got it right, I´ve always loved him ;)
Thank you so much Owlie♥
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