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Today was my six month Breast Cancer check up. It went well, nothing to feel on my lymph notes or in my breasts.
The doctor Adam, the same as the past few checkups, then asked me if I wanted to participate in a Genetic investigation of hereditary breast cancer..The hospital offers it to women that had BC before they turned 40.
I was 38 five years ago when I got it. I said thanks, but no thanks, as it is the same thing I am fighting my sister on. Adam was fine about it, as I have no kids and there has never been cancer on the female side of the family before.
Mum was fine with it too as she is dealing with SIS and her stupid over reacting on “would be-sicknesses’”

I will get a Mammogram within the next three months, and got a date for my final hospital check up on April 2nd 2013.
After that my doctor takes over a yearly check up, but I still get a yearly Mammogram at the hopital.

It all messes a little with my head now, because what it all means is this:

When(if)I get cleared on the Mammogram tis year and the check up on April 2nd 2013, it means that I have beat the odds I got after my operations, but before Chemo and Radiation Therapy…they were 4/10 in favour for me to survive within five years after the six rounds of Chemo and 34 rounds of Radiation Therapy…and a lot indicates that I´ve beat those odds…
It makes me feel strangely happy and somewhat special. That I am important enough to be alive after all that I have gone through…it is not that I think I am special in any way…but it makes me think that maybe someone still needs and wants me here…
Like Mum, my girls and maybe some of you…

On another note…
Pictures from Sunday, when Sarah and Thea spend the day here…

Sarah reading the new book I got for her

She loves her chips/chrips

And pics of Mums knitted Christmas ornaments for “Pink Saturday”...

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lyserød lørdag 001

If any of you like the ornaments, I´m sure that I can talk her into making some for you, in colours of your choice……

Tomorrow is Mums talk with the doctors about whether she is clean or if she needs extra treatment. Fingers crossed that she doesn’t…

♥Love you guys♥


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Sep. 25th, 2012 04:53 pm (UTC)
Thea is so adorable, she really looks like a little angel, especially in the second photo. And Sarah, well, Sarah is a lady now, isn't she? What is she reading?

I'm so glad to hear it went well, I mean, just reading what all you've gone through, it's crazy. Really freaking scary.

Of course you are needed. :)

I'll keep my fingers crossed for your mom. I hope everything's alright there.

Take care, y'all there.
Sep. 26th, 2012 08:33 am (UTC)
Thank you darling for all your kind words and for always being here♥
Thea is so adorable..and she knows it;)
Sarah is a pre-teen, but an amazing one that is. Right here she is reading the 10th or so book in a series about a girl and her horse. She has just finished a book about Elvira Madigan, a biography for kids. I read it when I was her age and loved it a lot, so I am so glad she loved it too. She even asked if she could keep the book, so she could read it over and over;)

Love you honey
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Sep. 26th, 2012 08:35 am (UTC)
Thanks sweetheart, you are so kind and supporting♥♥

Ohh I will, promise.

♥Love you too♥♥♥
Sep. 25th, 2012 05:35 pm (UTC)
I'm so happy for you right now!

And I'm sure your mom will get good news too! She just had too!

*hugs you very tight*
Sep. 26th, 2012 09:21 am (UTC)
Thank you darling♥ I am so happy that I have you around♥
She really has too. I´ll let you know when I get back this afternoon.

Sep. 25th, 2012 07:05 pm (UTC)
You have no idea how important you are! I'm eternally greatful that you're around and that I got the chance to meet you in person.
The eardrops are lovely,I'm passing on complements from my colleagues who think they are gorgeous. Clara tried to nick the bookmark. She may borrow it eventually :)Thank you so very much!

Send all my love to Gitte and hug the girls, they are adorable!

Elsker di!
Sep. 26th, 2012 01:23 pm (UTC)
Tusind takk♥♥
I am so pleased that I have you and have met you and your wonderful family.
Yay glad you like the eardrops and bookmark...I can make one for Clara if she wants one..
♥I will thank you hon♥
Elsker dig♥
Sep. 25th, 2012 08:03 pm (UTC)
Det går litt kaldt nedover ryggen på meg når jeg leser om dine odds, hvor nærme du er 5-års grensen etc. Ikke fordi det er skummelt, men fordi det er en sånn "beat the bullet" følelse. Det man frukter mest av alt - og så kan man snart si at "jeg er her fortsatt."

Jeg kan på ingen måte sette meg helt inn i det. Men jeg tror det må være noe av den samme følelsen jeg har mange ganger, når det plutselig slår meg at jeg har ikke hatt jevnlige anfall av Cyclic Vomiting Syndrom på over 2 år. Når det sto på som værst (Fra 2007 - 2010), og jeg hadde det ukentlig, så tenkte jeg omtrent daglig at dette orker jeg ikke lenger. Jeg ville så gjerne dø. Og dette vekslet med redsel - redsel for at den lille kontrollen jeg hadde - det at jeg visste at jeg dør ikke av dette alene.... jeg dør ikke om ikke JEG gjør noe aktivt for å dø. Og jeg var mer og mer redd for at jeg en dag skulle miste den kontrollen, for jeg var så uendelig trøtt av å leve. Jeg var 35 år gammel og tenkte at jeg orker ikke å holde ut resten av min tilegnede levetid.

Men nå - uten jevnlige anfall av CVS og med mer energi også - så slår det meg stadig vekk at jeg har ikke den lengten etter å dø inni meg lenger. Jeg trenger ikke lenger å gå med en jevnlig frykt for at jeg en dag skal handle på min trang til å gjøre det slutt. Og når de tankene detter ned i meg, så er det et enormt sug av lettelse, av ydmykhet for alt jeg har vært gjennom, for sympati for den Nina som har levd med dette og et stolthet for at jeg sto igjennom det. Jeg føler at jeg "beat the bullet" for det er mange som har valgt annerledes. De har kommet til det at frykten for å dø er mindre enn frykten for å leve.

Jeg er så trolig glad for at du fortsatt er her!
Sep. 26th, 2012 01:49 pm (UTC)
Min søde Nina.
Tusin tak for dine søde ord.
Denne comment krever lidt mere opmærksomhed, så jeg senner en PM snart.
♥Jeg er så glad for at jeg har dig her♥
(no subject) - bflyw - Sep. 26th, 2012 07:04 pm (UTC) - Expand
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Sep. 26th, 2012 09:33 am (UTC)
Me too darling. Thank you♥
Sep. 25th, 2012 09:08 pm (UTC)
I'm so glad your check-up has gone well again, and you are special Annette because you care for so many others and will be here for a long time to continue to XxX

As always you have lovely pics of your girls :D :D

Good luck to your mum, tell her she is in my thoughts (I was in your place this time last year with my mum)

*Hugs to you all*
Sep. 26th, 2012 01:28 pm (UTC)
Thank you Susan, you are so sweet, and I plan to be around and haunt you for years and years;)
As always I´m happy you my girls, and I told Mum..
♥hugs and kisses♥
Sep. 25th, 2012 09:46 pm (UTC)
I keep my fingers crossed for your mum. Her ornament is lovely!
I'm really happy to know that everything went well for you. And, sure, you're special my Kastanje Honey♥ I'll keep pray for you and your mum whatever♥
Sep. 26th, 2012 01:51 pm (UTC)
Ohhh My Sweetie♥♥♥
Thank you for being a wonderful friend to me and Mum. Glad you like the ornaments, she´ll make some for BabyBoy;)
You are so very special to me too, I bless the day I met you.
Thank you for your love and prayers.
♥Hugs and Love you so much♥
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Sep. 25th, 2012 11:45 pm (UTC)
YEAH!!! That is such great news!!!! ((BIG HUGS))

Great pictures and your nieces are so adorable!

Ohhh, very pretty ornaments!
Sep. 26th, 2012 01:30 pm (UTC)
Awww thank you so much darling♥ *Hugs back*
Glad you like my girls, they are the best in the world - I think;)
I love the ornaments too, it is something new Mum have started, knitting them. Hope she gets to sell some.
Sep. 26th, 2012 12:39 am (UTC)
You are very, very special, and there are a lot of people who both need you and want you here! *hugs tight*
That is absolutely wonderful news that you are beating the odds! And I will be crossing my fingers for your mum tomorrow! (I'm so sorry I haven't had a chance to send her a card yet. My life has been insane lately!) And her ornaments are absolutely lovely! ♥
Lovely pics of the girls too - I'm with Thea in loving crisps!
Sep. 26th, 2012 01:47 pm (UTC)
Thank you honey for your kind words. Just remember that you are just as special and important to me♥
Please don´t stress about anything. I´m sure a published author have a lot on her plate;)♥
LOL yeah crisps are the best.
♥big hugs♥
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Sep. 26th, 2012 01:38 pm (UTC)
Thank you♥
I need and want you here too♥
LOL yeah I love chips too.
Glad you like the ornaments, it is something new Mum is trying.
♥big hugs♥
Sep. 26th, 2012 01:56 am (UTC)
Wow that's amazing babes I'm glad you're ok and in the clear. As for the genetic tests that where offered I would have done the same. I was watching a documentary about that last year, if you can recall I was telling you about it in one of my letters and I asked you if you where given the option what would you say, and you gave me the same answer. I'm glad everything is ok and I hope you have a wonderful week.
Love from
Shaun (and family)
Sep. 26th, 2012 01:43 pm (UTC)
Thank youuuuuuu♥ I am so happy too♥
Yes I remember that "talk" and I don´t think it is worth all the problems it will cost. Not only with my Crazy!Sis and Crazy!Aunt, but worrying Sarah and I won`t do that. Nothing indicates it is in the family so just no...I´m glad you understand.
Hugs and Love you My Boyfriend♥ And to your family♥
Sep. 26th, 2012 04:04 am (UTC)
I'm glad to hear the good news about your condition. *hugs*
Sep. 26th, 2012 09:34 am (UTC)
Thank you so much honey♥♥♥
Sep. 26th, 2012 07:36 am (UTC)
I am so glad you beat the odds, the world needs to keep sweet people like you in it!
And I hope mom's check up goes well!
Sep. 26th, 2012 09:35 am (UTC)
Awwwwww you are so sweet baby♥ Thank you..
I hope your mom is doing well too.
Sep. 26th, 2012 10:23 am (UTC)
you are special and I need you! :) and I'm glad it went well!!!!

hoping for the same for your mom *hugs*

I can't believe it's only a few more days til I see you!!! :D
Sep. 26th, 2012 01:44 pm (UTC)
I love you and need you in my life♥ Thank you♥
It went well for Mum too.
I´m sending you a mail asap.
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