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I have had dreams like that the past week..a few nights ago it was a rather nice dream though. Jensen, Danneel and John Malkovich was in it among others that I cannot name..I was there too and for some reason something was wrong with my nose so I could not breathe..don´t know why I could not breathe through my mouth, but I couldn’t…I woke up in a panic and opened the window taking several deep breaths…used the bathroom and then spend some time in my living room, just breathing….
When I woke next morning I still felt short of breath…
I felt tired all day, but went on with my day as planned…I talked to Mum on the phone, telling her about the dream..she said that it could be stress and that some cells in my body would make sure I would keep on breathing;)

I think I know why I have been having those nightmares lately though.

( My 40th birthday was the day Sarah arrived here in the morning to spend the day..we were having breakfast at my Grandma and Aunt with Mum and Dad..but it was that morning in Easter where Dad got hospitalised for 10 days - five days in a coma - without any help what so ever from sis or bro..but Mum and I almost lived out there )

Yesterday was my sis 40th birthday and she had invited Mum and me to celebrate..it was just us, her and Rebecca and Benedicte..

I got invited last week, and after some nudging from Mum I said yes..( I don’t want to get into b-days and presents between her and me, for all the obvious reasons)

So we went for coffee and gave her presents - I’ve bought her ecological coffee and some handmade chocolate, and Mum gave her some cream and bathe scrub and stuff like that, as she is now poor and need to get her “everyday necessities luxury” for her birthday.
I’ve made necklaces and Hello Kitty Charms for the girls and they liked those..so we talked and ate cake and then I went to rest for some time as I was feeling bad.
Mum helped the girls with there homework and sis talked at the phone.
Then we made dinner, and after that Mum and I went home.

I actually slept very well last night;)

I am sure that my dreams will be normal now…I think I dream a lot, but most of the time I don’t remember .or it will be something weird that I will talk to Mum about, and she will find an answer…like that I will drink “Castiel infected” water when I drink tap water…mostly I drink bottled water with bubbles as it helps on the “dry mouth” I suffers from since I got my radiation therapy..

Today my Aunt (the one that lived here with my Grandma and moved last year) came to stay with Mum for the weekend. Not to visit Mum but she needed a place to crash.
Mum and I have plans for the weekend, but she will be visiting friends here and will not interfere with our plans.
Tomorrow my Town (along with 103 other towns) puts attention to Breast Cancer with a day called “Lyserød lørdag” (Pink Saturday)
There will be a bazaar, dancing, cupcakes, jewellery, flags, massages and a lot of other things…
So we will go and hopefully have an enjoyable day.

Sunday I’ve asked Mum up for breakfast and Supernatural..it works better with breakfast than with dinner;)

I have send new postcards to you that asked for them in a previous post, but if any of you want more postcards let me know….

I’ll end with some pictures and if you fell I spam your flist with Breast Cancer..bare with me, I am trying to survive here….

♥love you♥


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Oct. 7th, 2011 03:55 pm (UTC)
I know, but after thingking it through I am sure it all had to do with my sis....
I´m sorry you have sleepless nights too..i shoud probably get up when I can´t sleep, but I just lie there twisting and turning.....

Awwww you are so very welcome Sweetheart♥ I am so happy that you like my gifts. They were supposed to cheer you up and I am glad they did.

♥I hope you have a nice weekend too honey♥

♥Hugs and kisses and Love You So Much♥
Oct. 7th, 2011 04:28 pm (UTC)
Hey my sweetheart ♥♥

Aww that was really a weird dream!
But I do have such weird dreams too and I tend to get up and turn on the light altough I'm still sleeping *ROFL*
YEAH I do weird things when I'm suppost to sleep =D

I hope you have a wonderful day tomorrow darling. I wish I could be there too! Enjoy it!
Such days are important!

Oct. 9th, 2011 03:04 pm (UTC)
Ohhhhh Angel♥
I´m sorry you get nightmares too, but I hope it is not to often.

We had a great day yesterday, the bazaar was great, I bought a cancer bookmark and some new stones for my jewellery.

Oct. 7th, 2011 05:39 pm (UTC)
*hugs* you know, I actually am the same way with the dreams. birthdays and christmas and stuff give my nightmares, specially if my sister is involved!
glad you got through it and are back to sleeping weel, sweetie *hugs*

I'm actually playing with the idea of going away for christmas again, but I don't think people would be happy if I went on my own and they had to stay and suffer through it without me.
on the other hand, if I can pay for it and they can't, it's not really my problem, is it?
still some thinking to do about that.

hope you have a good time tomorrow :) it sounds like a wonderful event they are putting on! I'm with you in though, hon *hugs*
Oct. 9th, 2011 03:07 pm (UTC)
Yeah I sleep so much better now that the bday is over...

What other people can or will think is not your concern. If you want to go away for Christmas that is your choice...If you need a place to go, you are always welcome here honey, that is the truth.

It was a really nice day yesterday♥
Oct. 16th, 2011 10:28 am (UTC)
hmm, that's an idea! I should check that out for next year maybe :)
where would I fly to, which airport is closest to you?
Oct. 7th, 2011 07:25 pm (UTC)
*hugs tightly* Glad you got some sleep last night. I hope the nightmares stop now, it's amazing and horrible what stress can do to our bodies!
Oct. 9th, 2011 03:09 pm (UTC)
Thanks honey♥ I´m slleping much better now the bday is over;)

It sure is amazing and horrible what stress can do to you, both mentally and physical...
Oct. 8th, 2011 01:39 am (UTC)
I've had quite a few dreams like that - generally where my dreams try to 'wake me' so I CAN breathe. VERY scary! Wierd dreams can throw one off for days! I'm glad you slept well last night!

I'm glad your sis' birthday went well...and that she didn't cause any trouble, arrghhh!!

*hugs you tight*
Oct. 9th, 2011 03:11 pm (UTC)
Thanks honey, the dreams are scary, but a way to get things off your mind. I do sleep much better now.

I almost called Mum and told her I wouldn´t go, but then I thought to get a grip and not be a wuss;) So I went and I left and don´t have to be with her for a long time now;)

♥Huggles back♥
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Oct. 9th, 2011 03:12 pm (UTC)
Me too, I think it is stuff you have to get off your mind somehow.....
Now the bday is over I do sleep much better;)
We had a great Lyserød lørdag yesterday thanks.

Oct. 8th, 2011 02:19 pm (UTC)
I'm glad to know that you slept well last night, you need your rest♥
You know I did often dream, when I was younger, that I was swimming under water and that suddently I couldn't breath a,d I would wake up short of breath. The "funny" thing is that I don't like water and I don't like to swim...
I like the idea of Pink Saturday! Enjoy it!
Oct. 9th, 2011 03:14 pm (UTC)
Thank you so much Sweetie♥
When I was a kid I always dreamt I was trapped in a pyramid with dinosauruses chasing me and some other people, but I only dreamt it when I was sick;)
Pink Saturday is a great idea and we had a really nice time there.
♥Kisses and Loves♥
Oct. 11th, 2011 02:09 pm (UTC)
Dinausauruses? Really?
Oct. 11th, 2011 03:45 pm (UTC)
Yeah....It is soooo weird;)
Oct. 9th, 2011 06:25 pm (UTC)
I'm glad you slept well...I was thinking of you, because Steve hat a pink ribbon on his guitar! I'm not sure I've got a good shot of it, but I think one of the other has...though I've made some decent shots, now I have to learn how to upload them somewhere!

I might not get it done tomorrow, but your early x-mas present will be on the way shortly. I think you'll be pleased with it!
Oct. 10th, 2011 02:54 pm (UTC)
Takker min søde♥
He had a pink ribbon!!??!! That is soooo cool, bless him♥
I hope someone has a good picture of it.
Awwwwww I already love that X-mas present so much, I really don´t know what to give you that will ever match your love and kindness you show me here.
♥Elsker dig♥
Oct. 9th, 2011 09:11 pm (UTC)
Hi, fellow Scandinavian here. Hope you don't mind my intrusion. :) Would you like to discuss fandom in Scandinavian or do you have fanworks to share with other Scandinavians? Perhaps you'd consider joining us over at scandafandom?

We are many Scandinavians here on LJ, but we almost all post and comment in English. I'm contacting you to try to gather us in a strong and lively Scandinavian speaking milieu, where we can get beta readers for fanfics in our mother tongue, squee over Scandinavian events, fanworks and cons (not just stare in envy at our American friends' posts from AWA...) and so on. You can talk about all kinds of fandom related topics at scandafandom, as long as you post in a Scandinavian language. See you there?

(How I found you: I searched for Scandinavian journals with recent updates. I then had a look at your profile and journal, saw that you were active in fandom and thought that you would possibly be open for an invitation. I hope I wasn't totally amiss. :)
Oct. 11th, 2011 03:46 pm (UTC)
I´ll look into it, promise..
Oct. 11th, 2011 06:23 pm (UTC)
Great! Da sees vi kanskje der? :) (Det er lov å lurke også.)
Oct. 10th, 2011 07:52 pm (UTC)
Dreams are very often related to things in real life. So far I never had breathing problems, but I remember waking up crying and being too afraid to fall asleep again after my boss's funeral, because I kept dreaming of him. Until someone told me that I needed to remember that we liked each other and that he wouldn't want me to be afraid. I visited his grave and talked to him, and that was that. :-) I still do, btw. :-)
Oct. 11th, 2011 03:49 pm (UTC)
Awww I´m glad you came to terms with your nightmares honey♥
After being to my sis birthday, things has setteled down for me. I am sleeping good and I know it all came from stress over being with her again.....
Oct. 12th, 2011 10:12 am (UTC)
Stress can induce so many things, including nightmares. *sigh* Glad to hear that it's better!
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