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Soooo…what is exiting news?
Well I’ve survived 2½ week of rehab training. I had my first ever Aqua training Thursday. It took great convincing on my part but I did it. I got a private booth for changing and one for showering, so that was a big thing. And I managed to do the exercises in the water, it was really nice and I’ve decided to go there sometime by myself - well with my Mum but anyway;)
But as I should know by now there are side effects to everything..I´ve gone on with my life after the ”schedule” I’ve worked out for my self, one I could do without exhausting myself…but that combined with the rehab is so not good.
I´m completely exhausted all the time, I’ve actually gotten pains in places that I haven’t had before, mostly my ankles and feet, the only place that had been pain free.
My bone and nerve tissue is getting more stiff and hurt a lot. But as everybody says - it gets better when you get used to it.
Thing is, I´m never getting better. The side effects and pain that I have are permanent and chronically and just getting worse…but they will see that some day..

Friday our priest that attended Dads service, came for coffee at Mums. She is so nice and kind brad new in our parish, Dad’s funeral was her first in our church.
She brought the speech she held so we could have it and my Grandma could get a copy as she was not there.
Mum and I visit Dad every week and we talk about him like he is still here..I don’t know if that have anything to do with the shock we had…

My Dads gravestone, it is made in his handwriting

Sunday Sarah called and asked if Mum and I would come for coffee..we would;)
We had a fun couple of hours together.
Sarah, Thea and I played a Scotland Yard game. Sarah was mr.X and I was Sherlock Holmes and Thea Dr. Watson, it was fun, but at one time Thea left declaring ;” I don’t want to be Dr. Vatfu anymore”;)

Thea and Sarah

Big kissing

Tomorrow Mum and I will be visiting Balder for the last time, he will be delivered next week, Wednesday I think.

Mum - and Balder at six weeks last week

Balder and me;)

Mum and Balder

Ohh one place where I´m ahead;)
I’ve almost bought and ordered all of your Christmas presents^^ YAY ME
If any of you think you should be/ want to be on my Christmas list but are not sure if you are, please let me know. I don’t want to leave anyone out;)

I think that is all for now;)
Love you♥


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Sep. 21st, 2010 03:14 pm (UTC)
That's nice that you have the speech! And That talking thing is normal, I'd say. My first boss at the bookstore was more like an uncle than a boss, and when he died, I was devastated. I still visit his grave for his birthday and his day of death, and tell him everything that's going on. I can imagine him sitting and smirking, with twinkling eyes... :-)

And, um, do I sound greedy when I ask if you have those magnets also with a Steve pic? Chris clings to my door, but he's lonely... *g* If you don't, that's okay, don't worry!

Sep. 21st, 2010 03:18 pm (UTC)
Thanks honey.
It so weird with Dad you know..I´ve had him for 41 years and he has only been gone for like 6 weeks...I´m sure he listens to what I´m saying;)

I have some Steve magnests yes`I´ll post them for you tomorrow;) Don´t want Christian to be lonely^^
♥hugs back♥
Sep. 21st, 2010 03:37 pm (UTC)
I'm sure he does. *nods*

Aw thanks! No hurry, but yay! *g*
Sep. 21st, 2010 03:15 pm (UTC)
I'm so sorry they will not just accept that you have these conditions and the pain will not get better. They are always so sure they know best.

Wonderful pictures. You all look like you are having a wonderful time as a family.

*Big Hugs*
Sep. 21st, 2010 03:25 pm (UTC)
Sometimes I just get so sick of convincing people that I´m sick, it´s like they know better and I have to fight to be sick...as if I chose it myself.....

Glad you like the pictues and yes I love being with those girls, they makes me feel better you know;)

♥big hugs back♥
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Sep. 22nd, 2010 07:59 am (UTC)
Hey sweetheart, I miss you♥
The Aqua training is good, and I look forward till tomorrow..
Glad you like the pictures;)
♥love you♥
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Sep. 21st, 2010 04:06 pm (UTC)
Oh, that puppy is so beautiful! ♥

Your dad's gravestone looks lovely. I think it's totally normal to continue talking like the person is still here. My mum and I still talk about people we've lost all the time and it's hard to realise that they aren't here anymore. No matter how many years have gone by, you still miss them. *hugs so tightly*

And I'm so sorry to hear you're in pain. That doesn't sound good at all. I really hope it gets better soon or that the doctors start listening to you!
Sep. 22nd, 2010 08:06 am (UTC)
LOL Balder is sooo cute, we´re going to visit him today:)

I think it is normal too, after all I´ve had him for almost 41 years and my mum 45, and he´s only been gone for around 7 weeks.

The pain is from the Chemo and radiation therapy I got for the breast cancer, and is permanent. I just need to find the easiest way to live with it...

Sep. 21st, 2010 04:06 pm (UTC)
hey sweetheart! the water training is prolly sooooo good for you!!! keep it up love! when i come visit we can do it together.

your dads gravestone is beautiful- wow... its really breathtaking that its his handwriting... Im still just staring at it

say hello to mum for me! give her a biiiiggg hug! :)

i love u!! xoxoxoxo
im soo glad to hear that u are doing well my love.
Sep. 22nd, 2010 08:19 am (UTC)
Hey Baby-Doll♥
The water training is good, I just need to get used to the new pain..we so will do it together when you´re here;)

Mum and I are so pleased that we could get it in his handwriting, and I´ll be sure to hug her from you♥

I love you so sweetheart♥
Sep. 22nd, 2010 04:10 pm (UTC)
i hope that the pain goes away quickly... i never like to hear that u are hurting at all..

i love u my pips!
Sep. 21st, 2010 04:46 pm (UTC)
Awww it's always sooo good to hear from you
*snuggles some more*
Ohhh sweety I am sooo sorry to hear that you are in pain, I wish I could take it all away. Such a wonderful person should never be in soo much pain!!!

Awww the Gravestone is sooo pretty and i think it's an awesome idea to write on it in your dad's handwriting!!
And I think it's perfectly normal to talk about him as if he would be still with you and honey somehow he really is and will always be with you!!

Hahahah Thea and Sarah are sooooooo cute!!!
And Balder OMG I adore him, sooo extremly cute!!!
And soo are you and your mom!!!

WHAT!!?? WOW you already have all christmas persents!!??
You ROCK!!!

Sep. 22nd, 2010 08:39 am (UTC)

Thank you sooo much for all your kind words♥
I wish the pain would go away too.....but knowing you makes it so much easier to deal with it.

Thank you I´m so happy that you like the pictures and thank you again for being so sweet and nice♥♥

Well I don´t have all the Christmas presents yet, but I have yours;)

Love you so much honey♥♥
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Sep. 22nd, 2010 08:17 am (UTC)
Thank you so much sweetheart♥

I don´t think I have your name and address, so could you please PM me for the Christmas.

Sep. 21st, 2010 05:51 pm (UTC)
Hi pippii
big, long and strong hugs from me. I wish I can take the pain away, to make you feel better. Send you so much good vibes and thoughts, maybe it helps a little.

And yeeehhhhh, to your aqua gym, it`s really very good for the muscles. The stronger they are, the better they can relieve the bone - and that is good for the pain. You'll get used to it very quickly, I`m sure. * thumbs up *

Beautiful gravestone! I`m sure he can hear you, hon!

The girls are sweet, but you as Sherlock Holmes ?????? Lol, I can not imagine! *grins*

Btw - the package is on its way.
Sep. 22nd, 2010 08:33 am (UTC)
Hey honey♥
Thank you for the good vibes, they do help, I believe in the healing power in thoughts and love.

I look forward to the aqua gym tomorrow, I can do what I want in the water, just relaxing and enjoy it. And I´m sure it will be great.

Glad you like the gravestone and the girls, I was a horrible Sherlock Holmes;)

YAY looks forward to it, I´ve send you something too.

♥hugs and kisses♥
Sep. 21st, 2010 06:14 pm (UTC)
pyha du har da haft travlt Vennen-min!

Balder er altså noget at det kæreste.

Jeg er ked af at du har ondt, men er samtidig også ret sikker på at du ikke vil finde dig i bare at 'give op' og så finde dig med det. Så: 'kick it in the ass!'

Pyha! Julegaver... ok jeg er også allerede i gang. Vi købte Ida's julegave da vi var i Sverige i sommer. Et fint rødt Brio komfur og vi skyndtes os også at købe en ordentlig omgang Duplo da der var 40% at spare på det i Bilka så det var hendes fødselsdagsgave der blev klaret der.
Sep. 22nd, 2010 08:45 am (UTC)

Ja, det er også for meget, jeg kan godt mærke jeg er godt brugt efter en dag..

LOL ja Balder er såååå sød♥

Jeg er ikke typen der giver op, så jeg gør mit bedste for at leve med smerterne, så jeg styrer dem og ikke omvendt.
Jeg prøver at være glad og positiv og ikke pylre hele tiden;)

Julegaver ja....jeg har så mange der skal sendes til min flist, så jeg vil prøve at være i god tid og ikke stresse når vi når december.
Det er en god ide at købe gaverne når de er billige, da det hurtigt bliver mange penge alligevel...

Sep. 21st, 2010 06:41 pm (UTC)
Honey, I'm sorry about the pain you're suffering. People said they KNOW but they could never really FEEL you unless they've been through this themselves.

Since you plan to do the rehab, would you consider to minimize the workload in your previous schedule? I think you should save some energy.
Sep. 22nd, 2010 08:11 am (UTC)
Thank you!! That´s what I´m thinking, they have no idea what it feels like being in pain 24/7 when they haven´t tried it.

The rehab is to figure oout if I can go back to work, to see how much I can do in a normal day...the fact that I can´t do anymore than I do in a day is what they have to experience so I have to go on with my day....but I do sleep more than normal during a normal day...

Sep. 21st, 2010 09:03 pm (UTC)
Yay pictures!

Glad you seem to be doing pretty well. The girls are seriously adorable and Balder is smushable.

Looks like you and your mom are doing well swimmingly.
Sep. 22nd, 2010 08:08 am (UTC)
LOL glad you like the pictures;)
Those girls are the loves of my life, and Balder is really cuuute...I really look forward to my Mum getting him.

Well, Ive only been there once, but I look forward till tomorrow.
Sep. 21st, 2010 10:57 pm (UTC)
Glad to hear from you hon!

I'm sorry to hear you are in such pain, hopefully it will get better soon.

I love that you were able to use your dad's handwriting. How very special.
Sep. 22nd, 2010 08:03 am (UTC)
I´ve missed you too..
I hope the pain gets easier when I get used to the new training, otherwise I don´t know what to do..
I´m glad we got his handwriting too, it cost a little extra, but it makes it more personal.
Sep. 22nd, 2010 12:07 am (UTC)
OMG Sarah and Thea are so adorable!!! And PUUUPPPPPIIIIEEEESSSSSSSSS! Balder is sooo cute.

I hope your aches and pains get better soon :) And you're already done all your Xmas shopping? You are so on the roll... makes me feel like a lazy bum :P

Sep. 22nd, 2010 08:01 am (UTC)
Thank youuuuu T♥♥

Yeah me too..Well I´m not finished with all the shopping, but I´ve gotten yours^^
♥love you♥
Sep. 22nd, 2010 09:40 am (UTC)
the headstone is beautiful. They never really leave and they always listen. I still talk to my aunty who passed in 2003.

I'd be lost without my furry kid. There's no such thing as an ugly puppy :)

Aqua therapy.... watch out for pirates! take a rubber duck with you and think of Steve. LOL
Sep. 22nd, 2010 05:47 pm (UTC)
Thank you honey, I know he sits there looking down on us...

Puppies are the most adorable thing ever♥
What kind of dog do you have?? My Mum have a boxer too.

LOL at the pirates, the rest of the class are invalids too like me, but maybe if I imagine pirates and rubber ducks tomorrow it could be fun..as for Steve I would love to have him there*sigh* but I would probably drown;)
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Sep. 22nd, 2010 05:51 pm (UTC)
Tusind tak min søde..jeg har kun set det en gang før, min venide der blev dræbt i 1995..det er der min mor havde ideen fra, jeg synes det er så smukt og personligt.
Balder er bare det sødeste, kæreste mest nuttede;) Jeg tog flere billeder idag, vi var nede og besøge ham...mor får ham leveret næste onsdag. Jeg tror hun virkelig trænger til ham nu.
Sep. 22nd, 2010 08:36 pm (UTC)
Pippi, sorry it took me such a long time to write you..

Life can be a bitch sometimes, anyway, happy to know you are all right and doing everything to get much better...

Loved the pictures and your father's headsome is so beautiful and with the writing like handwriting, very touching...

Take good care of yourself and I'll try to keep in touch much more, ok

Cla ; }
Sep. 23rd, 2010 06:10 pm (UTC)
Hey Clarice
Don´t worry it is fine, life really can be a bitch...I hope that things are ok with you and the family.
Glad you like the pictures honey. I like the stone the writing makes it so much more personal.
See you soon honey♥
Hugs and kisses♥
Sep. 24th, 2010 05:03 pm (UTC)
Sorry to hear that you're still in so much pain. *hugs tightly*

Those are some beautiful little girls! Adorable!

And I'm sure your mom is ready to have her puppy! She looks thrilled!
Sep. 25th, 2010 06:06 pm (UTC)
Thank you so much honey♥

Those girls are so amazing, I really love spending time with them..

I think Balder will be good for Mum, give her something to concentrate on other than missing my Dad..

Sep. 27th, 2010 03:42 am (UTC)
I think that's one of the best things someone can do when a loved one passes. An animal can bring so much happiness and joy to someone's life.
Sep. 24th, 2010 10:04 pm (UTC)
I haven't been around for a very long time and I'm sorry, my Kastanje Honey!
I'm happy to know that your rehab training are ok but I'm so sorry to know that you're feeling so much pain. I really hope that you'll feel better soon enough.

Your dad's grave is beautiful♥
And having his handwriting on it makes really feel like he is here.
I think there is nothing wrong with talking with him like he is here because I'm pretty sure that he'll always stand by you and your mum.

As always Sarah and Thea are lovely!♥
And Balder is still the cutest thing eveeer!

Love you my Kastanje Honey!
Say hello to your mum!
Sep. 25th, 2010 06:15 pm (UTC)
Thank you my sweetie♥
Don´t be sorry I know that you´re always here for me♥

I love the handwriting on the stone, makes it so much more personal..and we talk to him and about him a lot, I´m sure he is listening;)

Aww thank you, you know how I feel about those girls, and Balder is the cutest pup, he arrives on Wednesday;)

♥Love you Sweetie♥
I will♥♥
Sep. 26th, 2010 08:51 am (UTC)
Sep. 28th, 2010 12:09 pm (UTC)
Hi Annette! *HUGS YOU*

I just read about your new training (the aqua one). I guess I've never heard that kind of therapy here in my country. I hope things will get better for you. I pray for you.

And I admire your Dad's gravestone. It's so beautiful. I wish I had that kind for my Dad's. But sadly, we can't put our own. The cemetery arranged it for us.

Believe me, we'll never overcome the shock, Annette. I completely understand of you and your Mom visiting the grave every week. My Dad passed away almost 6 years ago now, but we still visit him regularly, once every month. And we still feel that he never left the house. It's like he's still there, you know. Sometimes, I can even smell the smoke from his cigarette.

Regards for the cute Balder!!! :D:D:D:D
Sep. 28th, 2010 04:30 pm (UTC)
Thank you so much Dian♥
The aqua training is good for me, the other training, not so much.
I´m so glad we got that stone for dad, it is personal and just him..sorry you couldn´t do that for your Dad...
Yeah...somewhere they will always be here, surrounding us and being there for us..it is a nice thought though.
I feel Dad putting his hand on my back sometimes, the way he wold sometimes...

Balder will arrive tomorrow and Mum and I are so exited;)

♥huggles and kisses♥
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