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THIS MIGHT BE A CYNICAL POST..



Last Thursday my Mum got a couple of “mysterious” phone calls on her cell. She left the room and closed the door to talk. I didn’t ask anything cause I thought it was none of my business.
Then Friday she told me what it was all about. Turned out the calls were from my sister and my Mum didn’t want to ruin my birthday by talking about her, when she didn’t call to greet me (I never expected her to)..
But the phone calls; my sister had been at a meeting and had gotten poorly and had gone to a hospital, because she might have had a thrombosis, got some tests and was told “nothing wrong” probably just stress, so she could go home.
The only thing I could think of to say was; “well, is she very disappointed?”…
I’ve been thinking about it over the weekend, but I can’t find it in myself to worry or feel sorry for her….
When I got cancer all she could say was that my parents couldn’t see her kids if they wanted to support me.
She then got poorly twice so she could go to the hospital, once because she had a heart problems (nothing was wrong), and then because she had cancer, as I could not possibly be the only one to get an “interesting” disease (Still nothing wrong)
She is healthy, but you don’t get attention for that.
The last time I saw her the only thing she said to me was” I can’t wait, until this cancer kills you!”
So the thing is…I think I’ve gotten her out of my system, as I cannot bring myself to care about how she is. She don’t get any of my attention or my energy, she means nothing.
It might sound cynical, but for me it feels good.

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burned_phoenix
Apr. 11th, 2010 11:42 am (UTC)
I'm glad that you're at a point where it doesn't bother you anymore! stuff and people like that just suck. you deserve way better *hugs*
pippii
Apr. 11th, 2010 12:08 pm (UTC)
Thanks sweetheart♥
I actually feel liberated now;)
You deserve only the best and I hope you get that too♥
Hugs
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jayneeeee911
Apr. 11th, 2010 11:52 am (UTC)
You know why it feels good?.....because its right......you go girl.....x
pippii
Apr. 11th, 2010 12:09 pm (UTC)
It is right!!!
Thank you for always being such a damn good friend♥
Huggles
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biggelois
Apr. 11th, 2010 11:52 am (UTC)
Munchhausen much? Your sister appeares to be a right idiot, if I may say so. I can't believe some people.

Keep up the not getting bugged by her. Jeez. She is so not worthy of your time.
pippii
Apr. 11th, 2010 12:12 pm (UTC)
Munchhausen indeed!! She always have the world rotating around her. And you must call her an idiot I´ve called her worse;)
I´ve known for a long time she is not worth it, but it was just now I realised that I really don´t care anymore.
♥tusind tak♥
Krammer
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angels_cordy
Apr. 11th, 2010 12:09 pm (UTC)
That's the way to go honey!!
Some one like her does not deserve your energy or attention.
I am shocked how horrible some people are and act around others. It's a shame and this woman is a poor soul if you ask me I can only pity her!!
You deserve way better hon you deserve the BEST as you are one of the most wonderful people in this world!!
You ROCK
*hugs you tight*
pippii
Apr. 11th, 2010 12:14 pm (UTC)
Thank you so much sweetheart♥
I´ve spend way to much energy on her and feeling guilty for what she did...but today I realised that I really don´t care about her anymore..
I love you for being such a great person and wonderful friend, I´m still in awe for all you do for me.
♥Huggles and kisses♥
magser
Apr. 11th, 2010 12:22 pm (UTC)
Oh pip....honey, I can tell you I am more than half way to feeling exactly that way about my brother. So much hurt, and still determined to have my name blackened in order to protect himself.
It's made me into someone I dont want to be, suspicious of everyone, second guessing everything anyone says to me, not trusting anymore and closing myself off and not wanting to help anyone in case it gets thrown back in my face like he did.
So yeah, I totally get what you are saying, I love you honey.
pippii
Apr. 11th, 2010 12:40 pm (UTC)
Mags....No one and I mean NO ONE, should ever make you feel like that….
But we’re at the same place, and we need to figure it out on our own, no matter how much others tell us to forget it and don’t care about it.
I feel so blessed and so lucky to have you as a friend and one day you will find me showing up on your doorstep;)
In the meantime enjoy your lj-friends, friends, family and most of all Sanne♥ ( Sarah is completely in love with her)
You are such a wonderful caring friend and one of the reasons I am where I am today♥
Love you♥
paloma1182
Apr. 11th, 2010 01:21 pm (UTC)
honestly I dont know what to say... your sister sounds like a terrible human being! SHE should have been there for you when you were sick. Family is supposed to love and cherish you... not take you for granted.

Im so sorry that i cant be there with you right now to help make you feel better (im sure some extra hugs this week would've helped)

and Im sorry that your sister doesnt appreciate you.

I Love you soo much pips- I dont like it when you are hurting.. I hope that things get better

*BIIIIIIIIIG HUGSSSSSSSS*
pippii
Apr. 11th, 2010 01:31 pm (UTC)
Well she is terrible - always been jealous of me and I don´t know why..
But you sweetheart, you are one of the people that helped me through all this, you are my true "sister" and without you I wouldn´t have made it this far!
I love you and I treasure you and I feel so blessed that I have you in my life♥
Love you Baby-Doll♥
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kes1807
Apr. 11th, 2010 02:50 pm (UTC)
I'm glad you are feeling good about this now:)

*hugs you tight*
pippii
Apr. 12th, 2010 12:14 pm (UTC)
Thank you honey, it is like a burden have been lifted now.
♥huggles
arrow
Apr. 11th, 2010 04:00 pm (UTC)
no you're definitely not cynical sweetie. I am a big believer in Karma and that what goes around comes around and I think her being so nasty to you when you were sick has finally hit her. if she is sick then she gets to see what it was like for you. I cant believe family can be so mean I know from my own but I thought families were supposed to help each other out. Its terrible how she acted.

*hugs*
pippii
Apr. 12th, 2010 12:18 pm (UTC)
You are so right honey.
I do believe in Karma too, not that I want to be avengeful or mean, but that you get what you decerve.
Family are supposed to be there for each other, sadly that they are not. I´m lucky though that I have friends here, that cares so much for me..
♥hugs
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silkmoth101
Apr. 11th, 2010 06:15 pm (UTC)
Oh man, my second sister and yours are so alike! Wow.

The last time I saw her the only thing she said to me was” I can’t wait, until this cancer kills you!”

What a incredible bitch. And that's nice. Gawd! You go on ignoring her, that's the best way to deal with someTHING like her. *iz disgusted*

Hugs&Love ♥
pippii
Apr. 12th, 2010 12:20 pm (UTC)
I think your sister and mine should meet, they would love to tell each other how horrible we are...
I will never be able to forgive her for saying that to me, but I don´t want to spend more energy on her...I have lovely people here, I want to spend it on instead.
♥love you♥
asaneismrnuts
Apr. 11th, 2010 07:12 pm (UTC)
En gang imellem kunne man godt ønske sig at man selv kunne vælge sine familie medlemmer.

Min mors familie er efterhånden blevet voldsom reduceret både 'naturligt' i form af at mine bedsteforældre er gået bort efter et godt og langt liv, men også som følge af at nogle familie medlemmer har valgt os andre fra. En af dem var min moster, det er en længere historie med meget vrede og svigt men resultatet blev at da min Monster døde var den følelse jeg sad tilbage med ligegyldighed først og dernæst vrede efter at jeg havde hørt hvordan min mosters veninder omtalte min mor og resten af familien under begravelsen for det var tydeligt at min monster havde efterladt en helt forkert version af sandheden.

Så ja, jeg kan godt forstå hvis du har fået nok.
pippii
Apr. 12th, 2010 12:25 pm (UTC)
Min søster lyver om mig og mine forældre overfor sine børn og andre for at de skal vælge hendes side. Heldigvis er der nogle fornuftige mennesker i blandt der ikke tror hende. Hun har sagt til Sarah at vi ikke kan lide hende mere, men heldigvis spurgte Sarah straks mig om det, så jeg kunne fortælle sandheden, men på det tidspunkt kunne jeg have kvalt min søster....
Jeg har ikke mere energi at bruge på hende, så nu er det slut...
♥krammer♥
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dean494x
Apr. 11th, 2010 07:15 pm (UTC)
Your better without her, and for someone like that not being important is the worst thing.
I'm glad that this is not taking any more of your energy. *big hug*
pippii
Apr. 12th, 2010 12:26 pm (UTC)
Thank you so much honey♥
I will rather use my energy on my friends here, people that I care about.
♥hugs
babydracky
Apr. 11th, 2010 08:12 pm (UTC)
Oh, hon. I'm really sorry to hear that and really can't understand your sister at all. I would be so proud and happy to have a sister like you!
You're my little angel after all ♥

I'm sorry because I can imagine it isn't easy.
It isn't a great consolation, but I'm here and I do love you
pippii
Apr. 12th, 2010 12:28 pm (UTC)
And you are my sweetie♥
If it hadn´t been for you I would never had gotten this far you are so important to me and I love you♥
Hugs and kisses♥
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geek_hunter
Apr. 11th, 2010 09:37 pm (UTC)
It must be a good feeling to leave all that bitterness or concern behind. I had a backstabbing friend once, and I got hurt a lot by her... eventually I realized she can't hurt, I'm hurting me by expecting things from her. It was freeing to come to that realization. Good on you *hugs*
pippii
Apr. 12th, 2010 12:31 pm (UTC)
It feels good to be able to rid myself of her. ANd you´re right, we hurt ourselves by expecting things from people like that, we are better off without them.
♥hugs and kisses
tiburons
Apr. 11th, 2010 11:52 pm (UTC)
I don't think it is cynical. Negative thoughts and energy like that can only bring you down and no one needs that in their life. You are doing the best thing, just moving on.

xoxo
pippii
Apr. 12th, 2010 12:33 pm (UTC)
Thank you hon, you are so right♥
Huggles
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pippii
Apr. 12th, 2010 12:36 pm (UTC)
She is a cold bitch and only cares about herself.
You are so right about the Münchausen syndrome, Mum and I talked about that too, like she will do anything to get attention.
♥thanks honey♥
HUGS
babycin
Apr. 12th, 2010 11:22 am (UTC)
I read twice your post.
How is it possibile that a 'sister' can be so MEAN?
Oh God, sweetie, you are doing right!
You deserve the BEST and not people like her...
*hugs tight*
pippii
Apr. 12th, 2010 12:38 pm (UTC)
I read it over a couple of times before posting it, wondering if people would think that I lied....
Luckily I have the BEST friends here, people that care and that I love.
♥Huggles♥
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pippii
Apr. 12th, 2010 07:03 pm (UTC)
♥hugs you back♥
Now that I have come to that conclusion I can put it to rest so to speak. She doesn´t mean anything to me anymore and I can use my energy on people that are important to me like you.
♥love you♥
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albertesmor
Apr. 12th, 2010 06:30 pm (UTC)
Kynisk og kynisk.
Da bestemt ikke fra din side, og hold da op hvor er det godt at du har accepteret at hun er udenfor pædagogisk rækkevidde og at du har det godt med det. Det må frigive en masse energi, der kan bruges på noget positivt.
Jeg kender ikke baghistorien, men hun lyder sgu ikke rar. Og undskyld hvis jeg overtræder nogle ting jeg ikke burde. Glad for at du får det bedste ud af dit liv, det gør hun ikke.
Krammer

Er der noget med jer nordenfjorske, min faster var osse en sær snegl, ikke sur på os eller nogen i familien, mere på hele byen deroppe og ingen aner hvad det var. ;)
pippii
Apr. 12th, 2010 07:10 pm (UTC)
Jeg har det bedre nu, hvor jeg er kommet frem til dette.
Der er ikke noget at overtræde her. Kort fortalt har hun altid været jaloux på mig, og mente at da hun fik en mand og to adopterede børn var hun bedre end mig. Hun brugte børnene imod mine forældre, de måtte ikke se dem hvis de havde kontakt med mig. Da jeg fik kræft, måtte de ikke se børnene hvis de støttede mig under sygdommen. Mine forældre er heldigvis nogle fornuftige mennesker og træffer deres egne beslutninger. Det sidte der så ver for hende at såre mig med, var at fortælle mig at hun glæder sig til jeg dør af kræft......

Det kan godt være der er noget i vandet her der gør folk mærkelige, min moster har også en snert af det;)
♥krammer
yaya_wr8t3r
Apr. 12th, 2010 11:49 pm (UTC)
*hugs* it's horrible that family could do and say something like that, a sister :( ... but it's good that you are not giving her negative vibes and words any attention. *hugs* ♥
pippii
Apr. 13th, 2010 07:11 pm (UTC)
♥hugs♥
Well, at least I have the most amazing friends here, that care about me and that I love♥
deanvica23
Apr. 13th, 2010 09:26 pm (UTC)
you have problems with your sister?
my god your sister said you that? it's sad that between sisters there is of such words. i would adored to have a sister and everything share. you had a cancer im sorry. I hope that you is fine now.
hugsssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss.
pippii
Apr. 14th, 2010 10:08 am (UTC)
My sister is a heartless bitch that only cares about herself....
I got breast-cancer 2½ year ago, but I´m clear for now, just have a lot of sideeffects.
♥huggles♥♥
audeamus22
Apr. 14th, 2010 03:35 pm (UTC)
I LOVE YOU and you definitely don't deserve any of that. I'm just glad you're at the point where it doesn't affect you, as it shouldn't. I wish I could do that with a lot of things.
*hugs*
pippii
Apr. 14th, 2010 05:22 pm (UTC)
Thanks honey, I love you too.
I do feel this way now, but it have taken years to get here, so there is hope for you too...
♥huggles♥
ala_tariel
Apr. 19th, 2010 12:41 pm (UTC)
I can't imagine someone ever said something that rude! Especially to you. *shakes head*
pippii
Apr. 19th, 2010 02:34 pm (UTC)
*Hugs you*
My sister is a bitch that only cares about herself......
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